drowning.

it is raining again here in t-town. this is the most bizarre summer i can remember having. makes me scared for what kind of winter might be ahead for oklahoma. red does not like extreme cold. no bueno.

i am sad today. don't really have a reason to be, but i feel as though i could break down and bawl at any moment. generally, i am miss sunshine... but today, not so much. maybe it's the weather. maybe it's because my body hurts. maybe it's the trauma of my life dramatically changing in the last few months. maybe i miss being young and carefree. maybe i miss my friends who are not around anymore. maybe it's my new birth control. hmmm.... i just thought about that. i started taking seasonale and this is going on my third week. new hormones = body crazy. maybe it's solely because i'm a girl, and as much as i try not to be "girlie"..... sometime we are all just emotional head cases for absolutely no reason. not real sure, but as my grandmother says, "this, too, shall pass."

on a brighter note..... i am going to Te-has next weekend to visit ninsi and bunny. we will be partaking in mucho fun at six flags and mucho martinis at some fine establishments. hoorray for girls' weekend! please pray for no rain. :-)