happy wednesday

happy wednesday. my superviser is gone for a week, which leaves me in charge. yippee! i wish i had her power to terminate employment. hehe. the latest news here at the office, is we've hired a temp to replace a lady that had gull bladder surgery. the temp will be here for 9-16 weeks, depending on her recovery time. generally, not a big deal. we call the temp service, they send someone. this time... they sent us an interesting person. "her" name is melissa, and no one can figure out if he/she's a cross-dresser or if he/she has had the surgery. still has man hands and man features of course..... a man's voice disguised in falsetto......a BAAAAD wig....... bad clothes... thick make-up that doesn't mask the 5 o'clock shadow.... you get the picture. eesh. you have to realize, i live in tulsa -- we don't see a lot of this. so, a lot of people in the office are having a hard time adjusting. i have several gay friends, some of who dress in drag... (although it's usually just for a show..) but i am a bit more comfortable than most around here. it's funny to see people's reactions. funny to me... probably not funny to melissa. i kinda feel sorry for him/her. it must be very hard to be so confused about yourself. anyway, i will keep you posted on anything exciting that may develop there.

well, the lunch with ex's sister yesterday pretty much rocked my world. she informed me, in the middle of arby's, that he is having a baby. it wasn't planned and no one's happy about it. it is a bad situation and my heart just breaks for him. i cried all afternoon. *sniff sniff* then i got mad and told the emptiness in my car what an idiot he was. argh. i have no idea what to do, if anything. my first instinct was to run to him, hug him, and tell him it was going to be alright. when you are with someone for that long and you're the best of friends... you just want to make it better. but that's not the case anymore. it can't happen like that. i want to call him, or leave a letter... but i think doing that would only add fuel to the fire. *sigh* it's already out of control for him right now. i am sad for him, mad at him, and if i'm honest... it is a bit painful to realize that this chapter in my life is now officially closed. i was talking to the great Kal'el last night, and he brought some good insight as always. when i said that to him, he said "yeah.. but this is a good thing. that door needed to be shut. it will open a new door for you... and sometimes when you open new doors you can't really see what's inside because the light is so bright and your eyes have to get adjusted. when they do, you see you have more than you left behind." awwwwwww. he is the best person for me to talk to when i am upset about something... always always shines his red kryptonite light on things.

speaking of red kryptonite...... bunny posted about HER red kryptonite things.... so, i thought i'd list a few of mine (in no particular order):

• the smell of dryer sheets
• a good cry
• my sister's laugh
• new shoes
• dolce and gabana cologne for men
• hearing my dad's voice
• kal'el
• lotion
• "the best of ______" SNL videos
• the smell after the rain
• laughing
• singing
• babies
• beef jerky from the fair
• when Bob plays the guitar
• roller coasters

ok, i think that's enough for now. :) have a nice day.