the end, the beginning

the last day of 2004, and here i am... one of the only people in the nation at work. (i am off on monday rather than today for the holiday.) this morning on my way to work, i began to reflect on the past year. there was barely any traffic on the road. i didn't have my stereo on, but i had my windows cracked so that the humming of the road created my music. thirty minutes surely isn't enough time to reflect on an entire year, but it was enough time to hit the major things. i try to always remember how blessed i am and to be truly thankful and grateful for that..... so let me start with the good things! i avoided hospital stays and any major illnesses, i bought a new vehicle, i got a raise at work, i got involved in church again, and i met several great new people. these are all great things, but i had a rough year in the relationship department. if you've been reading for a while, i'm sure you know a little bit about the heartaches and disappointments i went through. no need to rehash, so i'll just say it was not fun. someone brought to my attention via comments that i write a lot about men and finding 'the one'..... yeah, i do. but it's because it is important to me. i have all i need - i don't think i need someone to "complete me." but i don't date just to date anymore.... i am waiting for the one i'll spend my life with. i want that! thankfully, i did not end up with anyone i dated this past year because looking back -- none of them were right for me. hindsight really is 20/20. i'm smarter and wiser because of the time i spent with each one, so it is not all in vain.

i am confident that 2005 will bring new adventures. i am planning on relocating come summer time, and that will inevitibly bring new people, new friends, and yes -- new men. :) maybe, just maybe this will be my year. i leave you with the beautiful lyrics of india.arie. happy friday, and happy new year!

The time is right
I'm gonna pack my bags
And take that journey down the road
'Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining
And I want to live inside the glow
YeahI wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between Arie and nowhere
I wanna go to a place time has no consequences, oh yeah
The sky opens to my prayers

I wanna go to beautiful

understand that it's not that I don't care
But right now these wall are closing in on me
I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place were I can breathe, I can breathe
I wanna go to a place were I can hold the intangible
And let go of the pain with all my might
I wanna go to a place where I am suspended in ecstasy
Somewhere between dark and light
Where wrong becomes right

I wanna go to beautiful

Beautiful.