mike, mike and me

i just finished reading a book by wendy markham that i just couldn't put down. the book was about a gal, torn between two men - both happened to be called Mike. it was published by red dress, and is on the national best seller list.... so, i figured it had to be good. boy, was i right. ladies - if you like to read -- definitely pick this one up. weekend was pretty uneventful. i worked friday, went out saturday night and pretty much did nothing but eat and watch t.v. yesterday. i would have pictures to post from saturday night, but my camera is dead. i just need batteries, but have failed to get any since i realized i had no juice. that was last week. can we say SLACKER?? the wife had a date with a guy she met while partying on NYE. he was really cool and seemed to be pretty into her, so all is good for now. ask me in 2 weeks and if she still likes him.... he might be a keeper! back to the book..... the main character revisits the past and wonders what might've been if she had chosen the other man. as i lay in bed wide awake last night, i was thinking about how basically every decision effects your life in some way. it is almost overwhelming to think about it. i'm only in my mid-twenties, and looking back on some of the decisions i've made... my life would be TOTALLY different if i had made different choices years ago. i am facing several major decisions right now, and contemplating the different "what if's" last night had me in a bit of a tizzy. i'm such a believer in going with my gut instinct, but on situations that are more important i tend to want to think things through. this is bad for me. i drive myself crazy trying to decide what is best for all parties involved. i have always been a giving, nurturing person and on more than one occasion, i have made decisions solely because i knew that is what the other person(s) involved wanted. argh. sometimes i need to be a bit more selfish and base my decisions by determining what's best for ME. this is something i've decided to really work on. call it a new years resolution, if you will. :) happy monday!