recap

whew. i feel like i didn't have much of a weekend. i generally dedicate several hours to laying around and doing nothing, and there was no such luck this time. worked friday night, ran errands on saturday. got my oil changed at jiffy lube, and boy are they quick. i generally take my cars to the dealer for oil changes, but i didn't feel like driving all the way out to one when there is a jiffy lube right down the street. i pulled my truck up, and about 7 minutes later (and $42) they were finished. FORTY TWO DOLLARS FOR A FREAKING OIL CHANGE. is that a bit expensive, or is it just me? anyway, we had lunch at one of my favorite places in town (the brook) and stayed there for a while visiting with friends that happened to be there, too. it is an old, historic restaurant in town that has a great bar area. lots of tv's, fun bartenders - you know the scene. after a few hours we went home, took a power nap, and then got ready for dinner. after dinner, we decided to head back to the brook. it had been several hours, we had slept, and changed outfits.... so maybe it wasn't too blatenly obvious that we had spent the majority of the afternoon there, and were back for round two. hehe. 3 of my hot barbie doll friends friends showed up so it's always a good time. there are all kinds of boys coming up to us, but generally there's no one too extrememly interesting that approaches. most stay away for fear of rejection. HAHA. my eyes were on a boy across the bar seemingly having a MISERABLE time while his friend chatted it up with 2 sorority girls. friend either struck out or got tired of talking about fashion and celebrities, and headed over our way. his friend reluctantly came with him, looking like he'd rather be anywhere but there. i've been there, so i know how he was feeling. ugh -- it's awful to be out when you don't want to be and your friends are hitting on anything that has breath. i am easily the friendliest of my girlfriends, so it was completely in my nature to make friends with him and within a few minutes he was laughing and having a good time. well, he looked like he was having a much better time than he was with the sorority gals, anyway. lol. once he relaxed a bit, his witty humor came out and i was having a good time, too. before i started to like him very much, i told him he had better decide which girl he wanted to hit on since his friend looked like he was planted next to my wife for a while. he looked at me, and said "i came over here to talk to you." hmm, good for me since i had been eye-balling him earlier. i love it when things work out like that. he left with my number, and we had lunch yesterday. his friend and my wife got a long, so they came with. we ended up watching some basketball and then playing catchphrase later that evening. (have you PLAYED catchphrase? that game rocks.) by the time we left, we had spent about 10 hours with these boys. the kicker is, i still like being around him. so, we'll see. i always like them at first. give me two weeks, and i'll update ya. hehe. happy monday!

birth control

so, my cousin carrie called me last night and was in a panic. she needed someone to watch the kids while she had to go to a mandatory meeting. i told her to calm down, and just bring them by the house. a couple of hours isn't that big of a deal, right? yeah, well...... when the kids are 6,4, and 3 months - it's kinda hard for someone who has no kids. when you have a child, that maternal instinct kicks in and you magically just know what to do. it also gives you the ability to do a gazillion things at once and not even bat an eye. i, however, do not have this innate ability and was worn ragged by the time she came to get them. i swore to myself that i would think long and hard before having a child. eesh! this weekend, i'm taking it easy. the wife is getting sick, and there are many errands to be run. we may just lay around all weekend, who knows. sometimes it's fun to be lazy. :) happy friday!

Random Confessions About Random Things to Random People II

i borrowed (...a'hem STOLE) this idea from Kat. i thought this was a perfect post for a day where i got nothin'. (Kal'el, if you're reading.... EVERY time i say "i got nothin" or hear someone else say that -- i think of you!) the way you chew chips with your mouth open drives me absolutely crazy, other than that - i like you pretty much all the time. i would really love to be friends with you, but the fact that i like your husband more than you poses a huge problem. we try to all hang out and have a good time, but you get jealous when i pay any attention to him at all. i try to keep the attention scales a little heavier on your side to prevent such things, but it's not my fault - he is just cooler than you are. you have completely moved on with your life, but there is a big part of me that wishes we were still together. i day-dream of how things used to be and of what i would say if i saw you again. i miss you terribly, and i'm sorry for the things i said to you. i'm disappointed in the life you have made for yourself. you have such potential, and yet you rest in complacency. you think you have reached the highest possible point, and others only see decadence. i wish you would hunger for better things. set goals. have dreams. you think i crave attention from you, but i really just want you to go away. there is absolutely nothing in this world that could make me want you or anything to do with you. i thought you'd be tired of the rejection by now, but you seem to be an unstoppable force. you are a source of irritation for me. everytime you call, i try to act excited to hear from you --- but i just really don't have anything to say to you anymore. nothing bad happened, i just feel like we are not really good friends anymore. and i think i'll stop there for now. :) happy wednesday!

tid-bits

i'm wearing a dress for the first time this year, and i'm wondering what the heck i was thinking this morning. it is still 44* outside, and my office is miserably cold. go figure. i'm moving in 2 weeks, so be thankful you don't live close to me. if you did, you'd be helping. i straightened my hair last night, and i think i look like a different person but i probably don't. i had a dream i was 6 weeks pregnant last night and i woke up in a panic. i hate dreams that make you feel like that. i ran into a guy i hadn't seen in a long time this weekend, and he said to me "wow, you look really thin." hmmm.... i'm sure he meant well, but my first reaction was, "as opposed to what? did you think i was fat before?" but i tamed the crazies before they came out of my mouth and decided to just say thank you. the trailer for Constantine scares the BAJEEZUS out of me. there's no way you'll catch me buying a ticket for that one. i love that new song "caught up" by Usher, and i'm embarrased to say i know most of the words to that song by ryan cabrera. on that note, i'm getting back to work. i might decide to reveal even more embarrassing things about myself. happy tuesday.

monday blahs

feeling much better today. i have one day of antibiotics left, and am sounding quite a bit more like myself. took it pretty easy this weekend ..... went to the park yesterday, ate some orange sherbert, and people watched. it was 70-something degrees outside, and everyone had a case of spring fever, i think. there were so many people out! i had an early dinner with the wife, and then started my journey home. i only live about 40 miles south of Tulsa, but it seems like an eternity sometimes. the drive was nice, though. i had the windows rolled down and the radio completely turned off, just listening to the sound of the road. i've been in kind of a funk lately, but i'm sure it will pass. i just feel really displaced - kind of like i'm just floating along. i have a great life, and i'm not depressed or anything.... i'm just not particularly "happy" these days. i'm sure everyone goes through times like this. i was reading stephanie's blog this morning, and relate to her "judgment" post. not all of the blahs i have are boy-related, but you know..... i just can't help thinking about it. i think it's something everyone hungers for, even if they say they are completely happy being single. i look forward to the day i come home to a home and a family of my own. ahhh, it will be so great. of course, then i'll probably long for the life i have now. single, no restrictions, no obligations, no one to check in with, etc. really everyone says enjoy being single while it lasts.... and i do..... i guess the grass is just always greener. :)

music

stolen (and edited) shamelessly from Beth. Total number of music files on your computer? here at work, i only have about 75 hours/2GB. What was the last CD you bought? actually BOUGHT? oh goodness..... probably sarah mclaughlin's "afterglow." i mostly burn or DL CD's these days.... Name five artist/albums you listen to often, depending on your mood. When I'm content. DMB/Live with Tim Reynolds When I'm happy. The Cardigan's/First Band on the Moon When I'm mad. Evanescence/Fallen When I'm sad. Counting Crows/August and Everything After When I want to sing. Christina Aguilera (i know you're laughing) What are your three favorite songs from the 80s? tainted love(soft cell), angel (aerosmith), you give love a bad name(bon jovi)...... how can anyone name just 3 ???? What are the lyrics floating around your head today? i was listening to john mayer this morning, and the last song i heard was "not myself," so of course that's the one stuck in my head for now. partial lyrics are: Would you want me when I’m not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? And i, in time, will come around I always do for you Suppose I said..You’re my saving grace Would you want me when I’m not myself? Wait it out while I’m someone else?

*cough cough*

well, i am here... sort of. i have been coming in 1/2 days all week, trying not to exhort myself here at my desk job. lol. i have a bacterial bronchial infection? yeah, so i'm being pumped full of antibiotics and should be all well in about 10 days. you should hear the way i sound right now.... it's a cross between barry white and a 70 year old smoker. not cute. i've been dressing up this week in hopes that looking great will help me feel better, but it only makes me long for home and a good pair of PJ's. speaking of home, my wife and i are going in this weekend to sign a 6 month lease on an apartment.... then i'm outta here! wow, i can't believe time is moving so quickly already! i've settled on Austin, and will be starting the whole job/apt finding in a few months. i don't really know proper etiquette on job searching.... should i wait until i'm just a few months away from relocating to really hit it hard? i'm so excited, that i want to start applying and calling placement agencies RIGHT NOW!! :)

sickly

i am sick.....going to the doctor tomorrow.... my bet is bronchitis..... i sound a bit like a man... it is not sexy....

V.D.

isn't it funny that the holiday celebrating love has the initials V.D.? so, it's here once again.....the holiday celebrating love. i have always said i think it is a stupid day, but let's be honest here -- what girl doesn't like the idea of getting mushy gifts and being swooned over?? unfortunately, it's been a long while since i've experienced the bliss of valentine's. my relationships are either just beginning or just ending almost every year at this time. bummer. i can always count on flowers from Jorge, but i generally don't have a "valentine." tonight, my big plans are to take my sister on a date since her hubby is still in Iraq. THAT is how exciting my life is right now. last night, i had a movie marathon and watched "return to me," "save the last dance," and "runaway bride" to get me in the mood for all of this love stuff. there's a scene in runaway bride that got me thinking. julia roberts and richard gere are walking and talking and part of the conversation included this" "Is there one 'right' person for everyone?" "No, but I think attraction is mistaken for rightness." how true is that? i personally believe that timing is a big factor. i've dated a few men that i'm sure, had we been at different places in our lives, we'd have lived happily ever after. i know that one of these days, it will happen for me. i'll have a real valentine, and he can send flowers, and spend a lot of money on me because of a commercialized holiday. i have so much to look forward to! happy valentines day!

so, i got to work about 30 minutes later than normal today -- and no stalker. i'm not going to talke about him anymore unless something else happens. i'm beginning to think it was just a mere coincidence. whew! so, i went dancing with my friend Podie last night. we went to a country dance hall that we hadn't been to in a while..... let me tell ya, this place is prime people watching. i stand amazed every time i go at the clothes these people wear. UNBELIEVABLE. while i was off boot-scootin, my sister was shopping. when i got home last night, i was headed into the restroom to wash the "bar stank" off of me, and sister yells "hey, push play on the CD player in there!" i did. and guess what it was?? the corrs' CD and the first song is "breathless." yeah, i had completely forgotten about that song until i saw "The Wedding Date" last weekend. what a great song. i pretty much got nothin' today, so i'll leave you with the lovely lyrics to that song. they seem appropriate being that it's V-Day weekend. love to all! The daylight's fading slowly The time with you is standing still I'm waiting for you only The slightest touch and I feel weak I cannot lie From you I can not hide I'm losing will to try Can't hide it Can't fight it So go on, go on Come on, leave me breathless Tempt me, tease me' Till I can't deny this Loving feeling Let me long for your kiss Go on, go on And if there's no tomorrow And all we have is here and now I'm happy just to have you You're all the love I need somehow It's like a dream Although I'm not asleep I never want to wake up Don't lose it Don't leave it So go on, go on Come on leave me breathless Tempt me, tease me 'Till I can't deny this Loving feeling Let me long for your kiss Go on, go on Yeah come on leave me breathless......

whoah-oh ooooh, i'm still alive....

i heart pearl jam. no stalker this morning. i took an alternate route to work, and actually parked in a different parking lot. not to be overly dramatic, but hey -- one shouldn't take these things too lightly. so, last night i watched "The Notebook." i had been wanting to see it since it came out, and finally purchased it last night. OMG, i was SOBBING by the time it was over. it is a wonderful story, but it's so sad. i took a shower after the movie and continued to have a really good cry. sometimes a girl just needs to do that.... it feels so good! in other news, you have to check this out. it's amazing!!

stalker?

hiya. so, i think i might have some sort of stalker. i am not one to be overly paranoid about things, so i really didn't give it too much thought until this morning. you see, in the last couple of weeks i have noticed this guy while parking my car. (i park about 2 blocks away from my building in an open parking lot.) i get there, and he pulls in pretty much the same time i do.....parks a few spaces away. he sits there until i get out of my car, and then as soon as i get out and start walking towards my building - he drives away. this morning, i arrived to work about 20 minutes earlier than i normally do -- and he did it again. i sat in my car a little longer than i usually would... just to see if he would stay or go. he stayed. and when i got out of my car and started walking down the street to my building -- he pulled away. i got his tag number, and tried to get a good peek at him just in case anything ever comes of it. but, don't you think that's strange? or am i just being paranoid?

fat tuesday

so, today is Fat Tuesday -- a day of gluttony -- the last day before Lent. i have had more than one person ask me what i'm giving up for Lent. hi, yeah - i'm not catholic. i used to give a valient effort at giving up something because i think it's a respected tradition -- but i'd always end up trying to give up things i can't live without --- like bread, meat, or alcohol. not so much doable for me. :) happy fat tuesday.

quickie

hello, happy monday! i am buried at work -- maybe more later. for now, here are some pictures of the mardi gras party we went to saturday night! click here to see photos

yee haw

anyone know anything about living in san antonio?

scattered

i will start by apologizing for this post. i'm farily positive it will be all over the place, because that's how i feel today --- scattered. i hate my hair. straight, it looks fabulous. curly, it shrinks up to a length that screams soccer mom. ugh. no offense to you soccer moms out there - but i am 26 and single.... not really a desired look for me. so, most likely for the next few weeks my hair will end up being pulled back into a ponytail or thrown on top of my head. argh. i have not been sleeping at night very well. this is new for me, as i have never had trouble sleeping. there is just so much on my mind. i.e. -- i'm crazy busy at work, and therefore, i have not been able to communicate with friends as much as i'd like. i have hurt someone very dear to me unintentionally. and there's nothing i can do to make it better. i am stressed about money. i am swimming in decisons regarding my future. BIG decisions about my future. i'm afraid i'll choose the wrong place to relocate. i'm starting to realize just how picky i am when regarding the opposite sex. will i ever find someone whose idiosyncracies i can live with? (yes, i know i will... i'm just whining right now.) my headaches are coming back accompanied my really sharp pains on one side of my head, and that makes me nervous. i need to lose 10 lbs before summer but don't have a lot of time to work out. 5 of my friends are getting married next year and most of them are having destination weddings. i can't really afford to go to any of them, but i have to find a way to attend at least one - because i'm IN it. did i mention i hurt someone's feelings? someone who is very dear to me? and i can't make it better? yeah, it sucks. i feel very unsettled right now in my life and i hate that and those are just a few things i lie awake at night and think about. it's madness, i tell ya. i realize that there are people out there who have to worry about things that are much more serious in nature. but these things relate to directly me -- so, they're serious to me. ugh. i want so badly to have a peek into my future to see what my tomorrows hold. the good thing is, (God forbid anything tragic happen today) there WILL BE a tomorrow. and someday, i'll look back at this time in my life and realize that it was just a step to getting to a higher place. tonight, i will rest in knowing that.

well, we were promised at least 3 inches of snow here, and what is left on the ground will probably be gone by this afternoon. damn meteorologists. i was almost looking forward to the little bit of snow. i'm a summer girl, but if it's going to be 33*, i'd rather it at least LOOK like it's cold outside. ugh.

random question: does anyone watch the bachelorette? there is a girl who writes a recap -- her distribution list is over 500 these days. hilarious. i will send you the recaps if any of you are interested.

i love my launchcast.com radio. "i remember you" by Skid Row is playing right now. oh yeah. i am a huge fan of hair bands. i can't help it. rock on.

look-alikes

so, this morning i'm in the elevator and this very attractive man says "sweetie, has anyone ever told you that you look like...?" as i hear this at least once a week, i smile and say "thank you." knowing darn good and well i don't really look like that person. i don't know if it's the red hair or the height (i'm 5'11) or what -- but i'm always getting told i look like a celebrity. i guess that's not really a bad thing, per se - it's just kinda weird. i don't really look like any of them. they just all happen to have red hair. today in the elevator, it was angie everhart. good lord, if i actually looked like her -- i would be famous, too. i put together a little collage just to prove my point. these are just a few of the women i've been accused of looking like. you tell me..... do YOU see any resemblance? click here to see collage