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well, it's once again self-portrait day. i still haven't replaced my camera , and i don't know when i will.... but thankfully, i have enough pictures of myself to last me quite a while. |
well, it's once again self-portrait day. i still haven't replaced my camera , and i don't know when i will.... but thankfully, i have enough pictures of myself to last me quite a while. |
| wife and i got into a discussion last night that lasted well past 1 am, so i was a little bit tired this morning. moreso than usual, anyway. i got up late, and walked out of the door with damp hair and my makeup bag in tow. traffic is always at a standstill for about 5 minutes at the light right by my apt, so i thought it would be an opportune time to put my face on. there was a guy to my right shaving with a cordless razor, and the woman behind me was also putting make up on. i wonder how many people finish their "grooming process" in their cars each morning? i'd venture to say A LOT of people do that. do you? |
why is it that so many people are annoying? i just got a phone call from a guy that makes me CRINGE when i see his name on my caller I.D. i met him out a few weeks ago. he is super nice, and has never done anything wrong to me -- but he annoys me so badly. his messages are all the same. "hey red, it's J. just callin to see what you's up to. i guess i'll try back later. hope you're having a great day!" every. time. i wonder if that's the message he leaves for everyone that he calls? I DON'T EVER CALL YOU BACK --- STOP CALLING ME. he called saturday afternoon, and i was out and about running errands. in the midst of trying to navigate through mall traffic, i had to have a conversation about how he is "an open book, and if you want to know anything all i have to do is ask. he is brutally honest, and blah blah blah. then has the nerve to bring up the fact that i haven't seen him in 2 weeks. "everytime i call, you either don't answer or don't have time to really talk to me." HINT HINT HINT, J. what's a girl gotta do? wouldn't YOU take a hint? ugh. |
| i had a dentist appointment today, and i'm glad to report that i have a 99% healthy mouth. i am the highest score they've ever had... oh yeah! the brushing at least 3 times a day, using listerine, and being highly addicted to flossing never disappoints. i was in the company of two small girls in the waiting room today. they were decked out in leotards and warm up pants and insisted that they perform their newest cheers for me. i obliged and clapped after each one because that's just what you're supposed to do, but i was giving the receptionist the evil eye every chance i got. it was 745AM and i was not happy about listening to two 7 year olds yell and flail their arms and legs around. that is, until i heard them scream their mascots name. "GO, Ligers!" i about shat my pants. i am so glad the comical genius of Napoleon Dynamite is being passed on even to the little guys. |
i'm not sure how this post is going to turn out. i got nothin. and in the true sense of my blog title, i am going to do nothing but ramble. maybe i'll write a stream of concsiousness post. those are always fun. but then that would let you inside my head and the way my thought process works, and that is just a little scary. i'm all over the place all of the time. sometimes i'll be thinking of something completely off-the-wall, and can't remember how i came upon it. it's weird. but i guess everyone is like that, huh? maybe not. when i was in high school, our english teacher made us write through the solid hour at least once a week. i would like to have read some of those papers. i went to a very small high school, but we had some raving lunatics in my class. i know of at least 6 that have been/are in prison and i only graduated with 44 people. that's not good odds, people. i, however, was valedictorian. arent you proud? i talked to one of my co-workers this morning, and told him of my plans to move this fall. he is a regional sales manager, and handles all of texas. i asked him if he could get in touch with people there, and at least get my name out there. he said he would, but that he would rather approach the VP of sales and marketing about me working on the sales force. interesting, eh? i've never done any kind of outside sales, but i'm confident i'd do well. not sure if that is even a true option, but it would be cool. i have been here for 4 years, know the product lines, and have formed good relationships with a lot of people. being on the sales force would automatically give me a 100% raise, solely in base pay. they also get commissions and bonuses. yeah, that would be nice. we'll see. if that doesn't pan out, at least i'll have some points of contact in austin. and now that i've taken away minutes of your life you'll never get back .... i'm out.
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| my insurance adjuster guy just called, and the estimate on my truck is $3,061.40. thank heaven for insurance. |
i took the afternoon off yesterday, and began the celebration of st paddy's day early. a group of us had lunch at and irish restaurant/bar called Kilkenny's, and those of us that could -- stayed for a while longer. we ended up leaving around 4, and after 4 newcastles - i knew i needed to go home and take a break before the evening festivities began. SMOOTH MOVE by me. i took a nap, got up and ready, and hit the door around 8pm. i was decked out in a green, tight-fitting sweater, tight fitting jeans, and a pair of killer heels. yowsas, i was hot to trot if i don't say so myself. st paddy's day is always a really fun day for me - if you have seen any pictures of me , you know i look like i came straight from ireland. we met at an irish pub that no one really goes to unless it's st paddy's day, and left after being there for about an hour. using a port-a-potty in swanky heels is not really my idea of a fun time, so we hit the road and went a little further south for some dancing. there is one club in town that is 24 and over, and if i ever go anywhere other than a local pub - this is where i go. it was like a family reunion last night-- i saw people i haven't seen in AGES and had a really great time. there was a killer band playing, and the DJ played really great music during their breaks. there were some HOTTIES out and i left with a few business cards. not sure i'll do anything with them, but it was flattering to say the least. since i was driving- i had nothing but some red bull for the last 2 hours we were at the club. i don't like to drink and drive, (plus the alignment on my truck is a bit off from the wreck and i have to concentrate a bit more.) so, by the time we left - i felt like i was bouncing off the walls. that stuff is pure adrenaline in a can. i drove my crew home, took a shower to wash the smoke off of me (i can't wait until every bar is no smoking - sorry, smokers, but i hate smelling like an ash tray), and laid down. with all the red bull intake my body was not quite ready to go to sleep. i laid in bed loving the feel of the cool satin sheets on my bare skin.... thinking about ....... how i'll never drink that crap again. |
| yesterday was a pretty great day, until i left for work. i hopped in my BRAND NEW eddie bauer explorer and started on my way home. traveling southbound, i noticed a big mess of construction up about a mile away. i was needing to get on the highway and it looked like they had the left lane closed just passed the on ramp. cool... i won't have to merge over and get in the lane that is barely creeping along. everyone (in the left lane) is traveling about 40 mph including me. well, i wanted to change the radio station, and instead of using the controls that are on the steering wheel.... i opted for the old fashioned way and i reached for my dashboard. i was looking down for what seemed like 2 seconds - i look up, and some bastard is completely stopped in the middle of the lane, trying to merge over at the last possible minute. i swerve to try to miss him, but clipped him. BOOM! my front right quarter panel -- his rear left. i merged into the creeper lane and pulled off at the nearest side road. it takes a lot to piss me off, but i was fuming. yes, it was my fault for not paying attention... but I HATE when people try to sneak in at the last minute. it pisses me off to no end, even if there is no accident. AAUUGGHH! anyway, we exchange insurance information, and decide not to call a 5.0. i knew i'd get a citation, so i talked him out of it. i said, "hey, you know you stopped in the middle of a busy street to try to sneak your way into the lane. i know i should've been paying more attention. we're both at fault. there's no reason for us to call johnny law." to my surprise, he immediately agreed. we chatted on the phone last night, and he seems like a really nice guy. he's just a really nice guy who needs to STOP CHEATING. so, i called my insurance agent and we'll get it all taken care of. not that big 'a deal, except i haven't been in any kind of wreck since 1997 and even then it wasn't my fault! i drive like a mom and am generally a very defensive driver. so, i have full coverage of course -- but a $1000K deductible. DAMMIT. that sucks. so, when i got home and calmed down a bit, i decided to go for a run to blow off the steam. i used to be considered a "runner," okay? i ran 10 miles a day for years. well, i haven't ran consistently in about 3 years - just every now and again. yeah, i couldn't even run 2 miles last night. so, in addition to the fact that i was pissed i janked my truck up, i was irritated that i've let my poor lungs get so out of shape. time to start getting back in shape, me thinks. oh yeah, and happy st pattys day. someone, for the love of everything holy --- KISS ME. I'M IRISH. |
*looking is fine. but do not gawk - it's unattractive and annoying no matter who you are. and please, PLEASE don't yell at me while passing by. ugh.
and before this turns into a full-blown b*itch session... i'm going to bed. please feel free to vent in the comments. i love to know what others like and don't like, too.
happy tuesday!
| can i tell you how much i love the new place?? i love it. location, location, location. we are 10 minutes from downtown and about 5 from all the bars/restaurants we like to visit. life is good. it took a couple of days, but everything is moved in and most everything is unpacked. moving is hard work, i tell ya! i slept in my OWN bed for the first time in 6 months, and am a happy, happy camper. i would attach pictures, but my camera is still broken. looks as if i'll have to purchase a new one. grrrrr. thanks for your input on the dream/sleep situation. i have slept like a baby in the new place, and hope to not have too many more of those "can't breathe" dreams. i am swamped here at work. i took two and a half days off to move, and when i came back yesterday -- i found that no one had bothered helping me do anything. yeah, thanks guys. pffcct. so, instead of my usual ramblings -- i'm going to plug a few of my new reads. chris - adored by chickens everywhere. he's real and he's funny. what could be better than that? his site looks awesome and he coded it all by hand. i'm thinking of hiring him to spice up the ol' blog. hottie scotty - he's hot. he writes really well, and is always talking/discussing interesting topics. he's from raleigh, and has almost made me second guess my decision to move to austin. haha. did i mention he was hot? stephanie - she is redheaded, so you know i already love her. she is a writer/photographer and lives in NYC - great, great blog. heather - i like her blog so much i bought t-shirts to support her. you should, too. she's also in NYC, and writes really well. self-portraits - fun, fun, fun. i found scott's hot man bits through this site so, it must be good. harpreet - this is a photoblog. he's from India and takes some great pictures. it's a nice window to the Indian world. so there. that should keep you entertained for a while. ladies, you can thank me later for the Scott link. *wink* happy friday! |
| i am officially moving tonight. we have rounded up a few strong boys to help with the heavy stuff and are having a "moving party" tonight. we are not paying them, but beer and pizza will be provided and they seemed grateful for at least that. i am taking off this afternoon, and will be off of work for the next couple of days trying to get situated. i am SO EXCITED about having a place of my own again. well, not my own as the wife will be my roommate, but you know ... MY things will be there and i'll be sleeping in MY bed. i had a long day yesterday. we found out that this great mexican resaurant is now serving "bottomless mimosa's" during brunch on the weekends for $8. let me tell you.... i can certainly drink more than $8 worth of mimosas, so finding out that information is like finding a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. mmmmmm......mimosas. we thought ourselves clever when we asked for "mo' mimosas" but it might not have been quite as funny to our server. everything starts becoming a lot funnier when your drinking mimosas first thing in the morning. hehehe. have i ever mentioned the nightmares that i have on occasion? it's been quite some time since i've had a pretty bad one, but last night i woke up in a cold sweat - scared half to death. since i can remember, i have been afraid of the dark. what is it about night time that is so scary to some? i used to sleep with the light on. i got brave and turned the lights off when i was in high school... but i always have a night light or the t.v. on still to this day. sometimes i have really evil dreams. i believe in a spirit world, and firmly believe that i've been visited on more than one occasion by the bad kind. call them demons or ghosts or what you will, but if you've never experienced this -- count yourself lucky. most often, they are in some way attacking me in my dream and always - i can't breathe. i wake up, feel like my neck and/or chest has been constricted, and still find it difficult to breathe. the room is cold, and i'm sweating. it's some scary sh*t. i wonder, did it really happen, or is my body just reacting to the dream? sometimes (in the dream) i am watching this happen to myself and i can't do anything about it. i've dreamt that they are trying to throw me off of cliffs, and i wake up to find myself on the floor. hmmm. it's weird. when i have these dreams, it is really difficult for me to go back to sleep. so, i woke up at 4am and have been awake ever since. i lie awake, grow increasingly paranoid about every little sound or movement and my mind tricks me into becoming even more afraid. so much so that i dont want to move. i don't want to breathe. i just want it to be morning. any suggestions? |
i don't know if i ever mentioned it, but i bought a couple of Betta fish a few weeks ago. a girl and a boy, lovingly dubbed Bonnie & Clyde. bonnie and clyde have had a great life.... i clean their bowls once a week and feed them regularly. there are even pretty rock beads that match their colors. i'm tellin ya -- it's been quite the life. this morning, i began what has now become routine, and started to clean the bowls. i'm aware that fish can go into shock just like everyone else, and i have taken extra caution when transferring them back and forth. this week, i bought bigger homes for them because i have started to kinda like them and didn't want them to be living in a trailer when i could just as easily upgrade them to a mansion. clyde didn't survive the transfer today. i put him in his new mansion and he didn't even as much move a fin to check it out. ungrateful, i say. i watched him for a few minutes, just to see if he was playin' oppossom..... but he was gone. i flushed him down the toilet and thought 2 things. 1.) aren't these fish supposed to live for like YEARS? and 2.) THIS is reason # 215 i shouldn't be allowed to have kids. i can't even keep a stupid fish alive. |
| i stayed up last night past 3am talking with my sister. those are the silly things i'm going to miss. i am moving out next week and i told her last night, it's like having to break up all over again. we had a hard time when i went to college, because it was the first time since she was born that we had been separated. we got over it, and got accustomed to living in different places with different lives. living with her while her husband has been gone in Iraq has been so fun, and there's a part of me that is really sad about leaving her. she is seriously, my most favorite person in the whole world. we never run out of things to talk about, i trust her with my life, and i would give mine to save her. i wish every person had this type of relationship with their siblings. we are so alike in some ways, and on opposite ends of the spectrum in other ways. we look a lot alike, have the same sense of humor.... like the same types of most everything. she is a lot like my mom, looks like her, too! and although my mom and i are pretty close..... we think very differently about most things. we have we have always been close, and there's no doubt that we always will be. *sigh* i feel so selfish for being sad, when i know she's so excited about her Marine coming home.... but i can't help it. she'll be stuck to him like glue for a long time, and won't want to spend time with me anymore. no more late night talks. no more shopping sprees on a whim. no more giggles after bedtime. BOO HOO. but i really am thankful to have had so much quality time with her again. most siblings don't get a chance to go back and live together again for a while. and especially with the move coming up in a few months, i'll be glad to have had so much QT. i didn't plan on this being all about her, but hey.... when i start talking about this gal i have to tell people about how much i love her. sweet, huh? :-) happy wednesday (and happy birthday dr seuss!!) |
he made me dinner last night and let me watch the season finale of the bachelorette without complaining. he even kinda got into it. he's either gay or he likes me a little. :) |